Thursday, May 26, 2005

I have a bad feeling about it

My job, that is. The customer does not want me anymore (quite understandably, considering that there is nothing to do) and for some reason I do not think my employer would understand it. The feeling is irrational but quite strong.

There is a company party tonight, where I'll hang out with thirty people I barely know and I am probably feeling too paranoid to be able to know them better. Maybe I'll get some comment on my paranoia. Maybe I'll understand it wrong, or maybe right.

OK, I am paranoid, but this does not mean that everybody is not against me.

Wonder about alcohol intake though: if too drunk, can't watch people well, if too sober, will be too paranoid.

Ei oo helppoa.

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