Wednesday, August 09, 2023

History books, Russian style

 In our series "things I really didn't miss from my childhood, but am seeing again anyway":

Russians are publishing new history textbooks for school, again. You can guess the contents.

When I was young, in 1986-1988, they tried to do it, too. The problem was that the history changed more often than the publishing logistics would allow for. Pretty soon they gave up. Soon after that the teacher gave up too, let us just sit and have fun in his class, and promised us to tell us the version of history that would be on the final exam a couple of weeks before the exam, when the exam version of history would be decided.

Monday, April 24, 2023

Fuck Russia

 Today is my personal "fuck Russia" day. Normally, on this day of the year, I would drink to the anniversary of us leaving the Soviet Union and post something like "yay, 35 years without Russia!" This year, however, Russia is very much present in my thoughts and prayers, most of these prayers being for immediate and painful death of its leaders, and for the return the current zombie incarnation of the Soviet Union back to its grave.

Thursday, November 03, 2022

Soviet memories. ethnicity and propaganda

About ethnicity and propaganda in Soviet Russia, from my point of view. No particular agenda, just some memories for those who are curious, and those who want to compare notes. Inspired by some memories of some other people, on the same subject.

I was born in Leningrad (St. Petersburg), in 1971, Jewish (it is an ethnicity, and was very much an official ethnicity in the USSR), in a family of two very young engineering students about to graduate.

As an aside: the USSR had internal passports and listed the ethnicity in them. Birth certificates listed the ethnicity of each parent. Schools listed your ethnicity too, in the class journals. The ethnicity was the same as the parents'. If the parents had two different ethnicities, which in my case they didn't, you could choose either for school, and change them. At 16 you got the internal passport, and at that point you had to choose once and for all.

(As an adult, I've heard stories of people whose ethnicity was erased and who were forcibly listed as Russians. That wasn't the case around me though: there they wanted to make sure you don't try to pass for a real Russian.)

"Russians" ("русские"), incidentally, always meant the ethnicity in my childhood. Nowadays they use the word "россияне" to mean citizens of Russia as opposed to "русские".

Anyway, I was a child, and learned to read quite early, and immediately learned that whatever I read, or see on TV, does not necessarily correspond to reality. Teaching the difference between the reality, the propaganda, what you can say with your own people and what you can say outside was a common thing, but usually didn't start that early. At some point my parents started saying "don't say this outside of home", but I don't remember when. Correcting me if I believed lies on TV came later. But when the TV says there is sausage in the stores, and there is no sausage in the stores, you don't need a parental explanation to figure that out.

The TV always said "we, Russians", so I naturally believed that it included me, until at the age of 5 my grandma enlightened me that I was a Jew and not a Russian. I took this with mild curiosity, and started asking about other people. I didn't understand how the ethnicity thing worked yet, and after asking about a dozen or so relatives and finding out they were Jews I figured that everyone is Jewish and the widespread existence of Russians is just something the media is lying about. (This misunderstanding was corrected a year or so later when I mentioned this conclusion to adults.)

I didn't think of it much. At that age I had a lot of interest in moons of Jupiter and rings of Saturn and suchlike, and fairly little in people, and my daycare convinced me there was something very wrong with quite a lot of people anyway, so I wasn't about to start thinking about their ethnicities. Some daycare workers occasionally used ethnic slurs to my face, but in an environment where everyone yelled and swore a lot this failed to shock me.

I took "we, Russians" that I heard everywhere the same way I took the fact that many texts assumed that the reader was male. Later I noticed that when they are trying to be inclusive, they list 15 ethnicities, and none of them was us. Even later (8 or 9 or so) I realized what even when the list was expanded, the ethnicities indigenous to the USSR and the ethnicities that are not were talked about differently, and the "alien" ethnicities were rarely mentioned.

Ethnicity was a big thing. Anything visibly different was noted, discussed, and often insulted. "Visibly different" didn't mean just skin color or suchlike, but also names, facial features, etc. I think by the 3d or 4th grade people became quite good at figuring out the ethnicity by name, to the extent that names reflect ethnicity. Yet there were lots of friendships across ethnicity lines, and people could insult each other with horrible ethnic slurs, and then be friends the next day. I am sure I did it too, and I apologize to everyone involved if they still remember me.

Most minorities in all my classes were white (Ukrainians, Belarussians, Jews, a Latvian, a Komi and a Finn) and could speak Russian without an accent. In one of my classes there was a black guy and two Koreans, all off them native speakers of Russian. You wouldn't believe what the black guy had to listen to from the teachers in class. Not sure if it was because of being black, or because his father was a real foreigner, but the teachers have at least called his mother a whore and said that he was going to end up as a criminal. (He is, currently, a software developer and a choreographer in NYC.)

Starting in daycare, and continuing in the first grade, we were told that the Soviet Union is the biggest country in the world, and therefore the greatest. I didn't quite catch the logic of it, but knew enough not to question it. We were also told that the Soviet union, and Russia before that, was always right, always on the side of good, and always won. Except, obviously, when Russia became the Soviet Union, when the old Russia was wrong and the new one right. Russia saved Europe from Mongols, and Soviet Union liberated  the world from the nazis, etc.

The narrative was not perfect, though, and sometimes clashed with real-life evidence. The civil war classes mentioned our enemies the White Finns, which made me wonder if there also used to be Red Finns, and if they lost. The Finnish war was mentioned in fiction, though you couldn't mention it in history classes. The border that used to be next to my grandma's hometown when she was a child was not there anymore. Uncle Zyama was born in Poland, and from the conversations of relatives it was clear that he did not come from Poland, Poland kind of disappeared from where he lived.

When I was 7 I was taken outside of the Leningrad metro area for the first time, to travel with my parents to Odessa. I kind of expected people there to speak Ukrainian. Most of them spoke Russian, but a lot of texts were written in Ukrainian. Some spoke Ukrainian. One woman who was staying at the same place said she was from Western Ukraine. I asked my parents what is so special about Western Ukraine. It was Poland, they said, before the war. They didn't explain how it stopped being Poland.

Next year, when I was 8, we went to Estonia. Everyone spoke Estonian there. Next year, to Estonia and Latvia, and everyone spoke Estonian and Latvian. People did not seem particularly friendly, which I figured was just my social paranoia, until I heard some adults discussing the same. I asked my parents and they told me "they have no reason to be friendly. You know how they teach you that they joined the Soviet Union in 1940? Well, they didn't exactly join voluntarily." "Did anyone else join voluntarily?" I asked. "Probably not."

I figured there wasn't a lot I could do about the occupation of the Baltics, and decided to learn at least a few polite words in the local languages the next time I'd go there. I didn't expect it to make people any friendlier, but surprisingly it did. Pretty much anyone in Russia whom I told about it, except my family, thought that I was out of my mind, but then people said that pretty often about my interest in languages.

I think my image of the state as an enemy was sealed at 8 or 9. I've noticed that people started disappearing a little before that, but didn't pay my attention to it, when I was suddenly invited to a farewell party with my parents. Friends of theirs were going away. "Where are they going?" I asked. "USA." "Why, is it better over there?" "Yes." "Why aren't we going, then?" "It's not so easy to get out of here, you need an exit visa." That was it, really. It was absolutely clear to me that a place that requires an exit visa is a bad place, and suddenly finding out that my home is a prison was a shock. I asked some other Russians later if it was a shock for them; apparently the experience wasn't common.

Years went on, nothing much changed in ethnic relations or otherwise. The stereotypes about people from Caucasus or Central Asia existed way before people from these regions came to St. Petersburg in great numbers. A relative told me that good universities would give me a hard time for being a woman and Jewish. I was outraged they had something against women too; I was well accustomed to the idea that they don't like Jews.

Glasnost came in 1986 or so. Finding out about Molotov and Ribbentrop pact clarified what was happening to the Polish border when my grandma was young. I'd been wondering about a lot of thing that I wasn't supposed to discuss outside home, especially how many of them were common knowledge.

The picture I got was a bit strange. Yes, everyone knew that you couldn't leave the country easily. Most people I knew resented it, too. Everybody knew that life was better in the west, yet man thought that Russia was somehow greater. Nobody wanted to fight in Afghanistan, yet many people thought that Afghanistan should belong to Russia. Most people knew that the Baltics were occupied, but quite a lot of people whom I considered otherwise reasonable thought it was right. What did they need the Baltic countries for? They couldn't tell.

Another strange thing was that history started changing faster than our textbooks could keep up. In the end the teacher said "fuck it, I'll tell you what you need to know a couple of weeks before the test." He did.

That's about it. 3 years after I left the USSR fell apart. I raised my glass to that.

Friday, October 14, 2022

Putin and zombies, a poem (part 2)

Путин репу почесал,

Матюгальник с полки взял,

Быстро выпил стопку водки,

И истошно заорал:

"Эй, народ, скорей сюда,

К нам идёт врагов орда,

Защищайте президента, 

А не то нам всем пизда."

Видит он - бежит народ,

Иль как минимум идёт:

Кто с клюкой, кто с костылями,

А один без ног ползёт.

"Ой, Владимир, ты наш царь,

Защитим тебя, как встарь,

От любых врагов народа,

Наш любимый государь!"

Посмотрев на тот народ,

Жирик в ужасе орёт:

"Вова, вы все охуели,

Ты смотри, кто к нам идёт!

Ты кого сюда позвал?

Кто в Берлине воевал?

Да у них в последний раз ведь

При Хрущёве хуй стоял!

Ну а сколько здесь бабья?

Нет у них вообще хуя!

Ну ты бля и влип, Володя,

Где хотя бы их мужья?"

"Слушай, зомби, пасть закрой,

За вождя начнем мы бой,

Хуй ни на хуй нам не нужен,

И у нас не домострой.

Я и в финскую войну

Воевала за страну,

Ну а будешь мне перечить,

Щас авоськой ебану.

Я и нашим всем врагам

Дам авоськой по мордам, 

Только что купила сахар. 

Тридцать восемь килограмм.

Коль враги придут на бой,

В зад их выебу клюкой,

А у этих украинцев

Ни клюки нет за душой."

"Бабка, ты сошла с ума,

Украинцев здесь нема,

Украинцы в Украине,

Стерегут свои дома.

А на бункер, всё скорей,

Бежит армия зомбей,

И сожрёт у всех нас мозги,

Если им не дать люлей."

"Мозгоед нам нипочём,

Чай, не мозгом водку пьём.

Раньше жили мы без мозга,

Ну и дальше проживём."

"Бабка, ты не поняла,

Обстоятельств не учла

Без мозгов ведь трудно делать

Президентские дела."

Бабка молвит: "Что пиздишь?

Лишь народ зазря смешишь.

Ты страной уже без мозга

Двадцать лет руководишь."

Sunday, April 03, 2022

Хотят ли русские войны?

 Хотят ли русские войны?
Спросите вы у всей страны,
У тех кто Харьков разбомбил,
Кто бомбой ядерной грозил,
Спросите вы у тех солдат,
Кто там насилует девчат,
Да и детей, когда пьяны,
Хотят ли русские, хотят ли русские,
Хотят ли русские войны.

Пришли в соседнюю страну
Чтоб там начать свою войну,
И чтобы люди всей земли
Спокойно спать уж не могли.
Спросите тех, кто воевал,
Кто в мирных жителей стрелял,
Не дав дожить им до весны.
Хотят ли русские, хотят ли русские
Хотят ли русские войны?

Сказали "можем повторить",
Роддомы начали бомбить,
Хотели Киев сразу взять,
Чтобы нацизм там повторять.
Спросите вы у матерей,
Кто потерял своих детей,
И вы тогда понять должны
Хотят ли русские, хотят ли русские
Хотят ли русские войны.

Поймет и немец, и грузин,
Поймет и чех, и швед, и финн,
Поймет народ любой страны
Хотят ли русские, хотят ли русские,
Хотят ли русские войны.
Хотят ли русские, хотят ли русские,
Хотят ли русские войны.

Sunday, March 27, 2022

Putin and zombies, a poem (part 1)

"Ни хуя," сказал Шойгу,
"Я так больше не могу.
Вовка, ты сиди на троне,
Ну а я схожу в тайгу.

Я возьму с собой еду,
Всех вождей пошлю в пизду,
И хоть в Северной Корее
Я убежище найду."

"Хуй с Серёгой," вождь сказал.
"Он хреновый генерал.
Наложил в штаны по полной,
А теперь совсем удрал.

Эй, Герасимов, ко мне,
Ты хоть раз был на войне,
Ты займись-ка Украиной,
В этой разберись хуйне.

Блядь, куда он убежал?
А ещё, мол, генерал,
Думал, он покруче Шойгу,
Ну а он в штаны насрал.

Жириновского ко мне!
Он хоть не был на войне,
Но он круче их обоих,
Всем пизды задаст вдвойне."

Сразу же ему в ответ
Входит Жирик в кабинет,
Но вот как-то непонятно,
Толь живой он, толи нет.

"Вовка, слушай, ты дебил!
Мариуполь разбомбил!
Я когда пиздил об этом, 
Я же просто пошутил!

Разбомбил ты город в хлам,
Учинил вселенский срам,
Хоть и знал что Украина
Нам уже не по зубам."

Молвил Путин: "Ты, гляжу,
Понабрался куражу.
Хоть ты призрак, хоть ты зомби,
Но тебя я посажу."

Тот ответил "Дуралей,
Ты спасай своих людей,
А не то уже до завтра
Попадешь ты в Мавзолей.

Ты не понял ни хуя,
Не боюсь тюряги я,
Я теперь когтистый зомби,
Мне не страшен твой судья.

Не еби мозги мне тут,
Не зови своих паскуд,
На хуе тебя вертел я, 
Да и твой Басманный суд."

"Ладно Жирик, не жужжи,
Ты иди, в гробу лежи,
Но пока ты здесь со мною,
Про тот свет мне расскажи.

Почему ты не в аду?"
"Вова, ты имей в виду,
Ад ввёл санкции на русских,
Посылают всех в пизду.

В рай нас тоже не берут,
Прямо сразу на хуй шлют,
Рай теперь вступает в НАТО,
В НАТО русских не зовут.

Так что тысячи солдат
Не в гробу уже лежат,
А хотят тебя прикончить,
Да и твой госаппарат.

Встали зомби из могил,
Те, кого ты загубил,
И идут войной на бункер,
Это хуже чем ИГИЛ."

"Не боюсь я войск моих,
Я же слал туда тупых,
Да к тому же украинцы
Танки спиздили у них."

"Вова, ты блядь идиот,
Зомби-армия придёт,
И без танков, и без ружий
Тебе яйца оторвёт.

По стране они идут,
У прохожих мозги жрут,
Тех могзов хоть и немного,
Но сойдут хоть за фастфуд."

"Не боюсь я тех солдат,
Без ракет и без гранат,
Защитит меня от зомби 
Мой родной электорат."

"Кто мне голос отдаёт,
Того зомби не сожрёт,
Зомби ест походу мозги,
И у них их не найдёт."

"Я скажу тебе любя,
Нет мозгов и у тебя,
Ты о чём, мудила, думал,
Украину разбомбя?

Ты серьёзно думал, гад,
Что устроишь там парад?
Да тебе вся Украина
Хочет вставить кактус в зад!

Из-за ёбаных понтов
И украинских фронтов
Сам, уёбище, создал ты
Вокруг нас кольцо врагов!

Финны в НАТО подадут,
Шведов заодно возьмут,
Даже чёртовы швейцарцы
Наши деньги загребут.

И поляки нас с углём
Вслед пошлют за кораблём,
И Китай тебя, похоже,
На хуе вертит своём."

"Жирик, ты Китай не трожь,
Как-никак, союзник всё ж,
А верчение на хуе -
Это вражеский пиздёж.

Есть у нас ещё друзья,
Эритрейские края,
Правда денег у них мало,
А точнее ни хуя."

Wednesday, March 09, 2022


For a while I found it difficult to put my feelings about the war into words.

I think I can finally describe what it feels like: the rotting corpse of the USSR rising from its grave as a zombie and devouring people.

Imagine when somebody who's been dead for 30 years and whom you couldn't stand even when they were alive, suddenly clawing their way out of the grave, getting up, and eating live people and chasing them out of their homes.

Sunday, August 15, 2021

Experts and fake news

We live in the times where good people are told not to question expert authority. "They are the experts! You are a nobody sitting in the toilet and watching Youtube! Don't spread fake news!"

On one hand, understandable, considering that I've actually run into people saying that vaccines will make us grow horns, tails, insert chips into us and make us receive 5G signal. (A total lie , by the way, no 5G reception happened at all until I went and paid Telia for it.)

On the other hand...

First of all, there are many experts and they tend to say different things, especially on the subject of Covid-19, because the whole subject is quite new and evolving fast. There is pretty good scientific consensus on some things, not on the others, some studies are peer-reviewed, some are not, mistakes are being made, mistakes are being corrected, etc. Kind of hard for a layperson to figure this all out, and then there are people screaming on every corner that their expert is an expertier expert than everyone else's.

Second, most of the expert opinions we hear are filtered through the media and the politicians. No, I am not suggesting that some journalist might not be familiar with the subject at hand, or that some politicians might lie sometimes, perish the thought, when would any politician do something like that? But I gotta say that when the White House says they are not opening travel from the Schengen area because there of the Delta variant, on the advice of the health experts, I would like to know who those health experts are and what did they actually say. The Delta variant was 83% of US cases at that point; were they afraid that Europeans would come and make it 84%?

There are news going around that are obviously fake, of course, but then there also are things that are labeled as fake news until they suddenly aren't, like the possibility that the virus came from a Wuhan lab. Makes me wonder who decides what news are fake and what aren't and what is the Ultimate Truth? And how do we know which experts are actual experts? Also, how do we know which ones are impartial, and which ones, say, forgot the wash their hands after leaving their lab and are trying to make sure no one ever finds out? 

Somehow, every time I hear "fake news", even when the news really are very obviously and stupidly fake, I am reminded that heliocentrism was fake news back in 1615, by people who apparently considered themselves experts.

Anyway, one of the reasons I am writing this now is that I started to wonder, if we are not supposed to question what experts say, does it concern all the experts in all the fields? Because right now it seems like the withdrawal from Afghanistan has been fucked up. But what do I know - they are the people who have occupied Afghanistan for 20 years, and I am just sitting here on my ass and haven't occupied a single Afghanistan in my life.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019


Like many others, I've been shocked and upset by yesterday's fire in Notre Dame cathedral. I visit Paris often, really like both Paris and Notre Dame, and have been inside the cathedral many times, and climbed the towers a few times, but I still regretted every time I was there and didn't go inside. Last night in my FB feed, groups and real life there were many people who regretted that they visited Paris but haven't been inside even once, or were just planning to visit Paris for the first time this year.

Here is for them, and for the rest of us who are sorely missing the cathedral now:

During the WWI Reims Cathedral was bombed and then burned down, and look at it now! Yes, it took about 20 years to restore, but it is there again, and it's awesome. Notre Dame will get there. I'll miss it until then, but it'll get there.

In the meanwhile, while you are visiting Paris:

Look at it now! Reims Cathedral, I mean. It's beautiful, and it's within a day trip from Paris. Chartres Cathedral is also within a day trip, and even better (matter of taste, of course). Amiens. Beauvais, weird and badly built, but still beautiful and awesome. Saint-Denis, within the Paris public transportation and the oldest Gothic church in France. Bourges, if you have time for more than a day trip. Go see Sainte Chapelle, if you are not into day trips. Saint Eustache. Saint Germain De Pres.

They won't replace Notre Dame, but please remember that Notre Dame, even if restored to a great condition in reasonable time, won't replace them either. They are worth a visit in their own right.

Sunday, March 03, 2019

We don't know of any damn foreign countries, we are just the State Department!

Found this gem on the webpage of the US embassy in Finland. Not their fault, it's the whole State-Department-wide:

"Importance notice (February 6, 2019):
Please note: You cannot currently list a “Country” when completing the “Emergency Contact” section on our form filler applications available through Travel.State.Gov (DS-11 and DS-82). Please list an emergency contact in the United States."

For those who don't know, DS-11 and DS-82 are US passport application forms. And they include information on an emergency contact. Without a country, because the damn forms don't have a field for a country.

For fuck's sake! This is our State motherfucking Department. They should fucking know that there are such things as foreign countries, and that addresses should include a fucking field for a fucking country. This is our foreign ministry, meant to conduct our international relations (the ones that don't involve drones, anyway), to run embassies, to provide services to Americans travelling or living abroad and they are either a) not capable of adding a field to a form, or b) not capable of sending an international snail mail if there is a field for the country.

Incidentally, there is no field for email there, either. The form does not predate email, though, because there is an email field for the applicant, just not for the emergency contact. Because snail mail is just what you want to use when you want to contact someone in an emergency. There is a field for a phone number, thank God for small favors. With luck you should be able to fit the country code in there.

The embassy encourages (but does not require anymore, luckily) everyone who can apply for a passport by mail (that's everyone over 16 whose previous passport still exists and is less than 15 years old) to do so.  There is only one unfortunate detail: you have to pay for it in person. Dollars, euros or a major credit card. Well, since I live in Helsinki that beats pankkivekseli that I had to procure the last time around (don't ask me what it is - some Finnish version of a money order - I've never heard of them before, or since.)

Well, it's still a couple of years before I need to renew my passport, so there is some hope that the embassy might get themselves a bank account or something, or figure out the local banking system. They already have an online banking transfer set up for visa applicants, so maybe, just maybe, in a couple of years they'll figure out how to do it for the citizens. OTOH, I was asking the same questions the last time, so probably not.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

Britain, WTF?

To be quite sure, this is not just the UK, and this is not the first time. But this case is very public, and very blatant. The UK is trying to strip Shamima Begum of her UK citizenship.

Shamima Begum is a teenager who was born and raised in Britain, and left for Syria in 2015 at the age of 15, probably in order to enjoy her 72 virgins. Now she is 19, has had enough of war and virgins, and wishes to return to the UK with her baby.

Truth be told, I have very little sympathy for her, and if it turned out that she had been blown to bits during that war I would have muttered something like "natural death" and "Darwin award". She hasn't, though, she is alive and wishes to return to her home country, as she should have the right to, under the Universal Declaration of Human Rights, article 13 (2) ("Everyone has the right to leave any country, including his own, and to return to his country.") The UK is trying to deny her this right, on account that they think she is also eligible for citizenship of Bangladesh.

She is a British citizen, born and raised. If she has been involved in terrorist acts in Syria, she belongs in a British prison, or a Syrian prison if they want to keep her there. AFAIK (the situation has been changing all the time) she has not been charged with anything, which probably means that the UK authorities don't even know whether she was really involved in terrorist activities, or whether she was just going through her 72 living virgins of some Fucking Moron Martyrs Brigade.

Yeah, I get it that if you have a case of a probable terrorist whose terrorist activities you cannot prove in a court of law, it's very-very convenient to try to dump her on another country if you can find some suckers: you get rid of her, you don't have to meet the proof standards of a criminal trial, and in case you can prove she is a terrorist your taxpayers don't have to pay for her imprisonment. The thing is, convenience isn't everything, or at least shouldn't be in a civilized country. If it were, there would be an even more convenient way to get rid of her: a nice bullet in the head, without a trial. There is a reason we don't usually do this kind of thing.

What they are doing is both an obviously racist treatment of a citizen, and very unfair to people of Bangladesh, who have so far had nothing to do with Shamima Begum, and would undoubtedly like to keep it that way. The whole idea that "it's not so bad to deprive dual citizens of their citizenship, because they have another one" can only result in countries competing with who will get to dump the undesirable dual citizen first, and indeed while I was writing this  Bangladesh has issued a statement that can be summarized as "up yours, Britain", and I gotta say that in this case I am cheering for Bangladesh.

It's doesn't take a crystal ball to see how this will go: the kind of people who have a western and a third-world citizenship will make sure to get rid of the third-world citizenship before joining the Fucking Moron Martyrs Brigade or Holy 72 Incels Regiment, the people who have two or more western citizenships wouldn't care as much, and the next time Britain wants to strip its citizenship from a dual citizen it might as well be from some UK-raised fucker with a Finnish parent. Do you want them here? Because I'd rather not.

Friday, December 07, 2018


Every once in a while when women are talking about sexual harassment, especially during their teens or earlier, but often also as adults, the topic of shame comes up.

I'd never had any clue why. Anger, yes. Annoyance. Frustration. Fear, not usually my thing unless the harassment is obviously threatening, but I can totally understand. What is there to be ashamed about? In all my long history with it, from the guy in a tram who put his hand in my underwear when I was 8 or 9, to the guys who followed me in the street and begged for sex and didn't want to hear no, and the guys who demonstrated their dicks from their cars when a dick pic wasn't a thing yet, and the strangers who found it necessary to inform me that I have big tits, I have never lost the track of who should be ashamed there - and it wasn't me.

I'd wondered if I had lived a sheltered life after all, if there is some cultural difference, although I heard the shame thing from Russian women just as well, and where the hell did those other women get that message from.

Today I tried to think harder, and yes, now I realize the message was there. All those people who told me and my friends that if we just position ourselves right, or carry ourselves right, or dress right (all of the above meant different thing for different people) we would make those guys respect us and stop harassing us. I heard the message, over and over again. I even argued with them, my points being that a) while I understand and use some precautions to avoid physical assault, there is no fucking way in hell I'd change anything in my life just to prevent some asshole from embarrassing himself publicly, and b) I have absolutely no use for their respect, and the kind of people who's respect me only if I have a very high neckline and never smile can stick their respect where the sun don't shine.

I don't think the well-intentioned shamers ever understood. One of them was even my guidance counselor in school, and should have known better.

As to why I didn't get the memo at the time - I think it's just something undiagnozed on the autism spectrum. Damn inconvenient pretty often, but comes handy when you don't want some stupid social message hammered into your head.

I don't think many young girls will read this, but just in case any do:

1. It's not anything you did or failed to do. The harassers are doing it because you happen to be female, and young, and they happen to be there, and assholes, and horny. Sometimes they also do it to people who are male and young. Getting older doesn't quite get rid of them, but reduces the numbers considerably.

2. Unless you are physically threatened or think you might be, there is really no point in inconveniencing yourself just to avoid their attention. They should be ashamed of themselves, and we as a society are slowly going in that direction, but right now they are an annoying fact of life like telemarketers and banana flies.

3. The harassers really should be ashamed of themselves. They are embarrassing themselves in public. It might or might not be safe to laugh and point, but if you are upset and want to make yourself feel better, just imagine that guy standing on his hands naked from the waist down, ass up in the air, and a sparkler up his ass. Or imagine him as the protagonist of one of those Youtube videos where people do spectacularly stupid things.

4. Don't think how to make them respect you. They are people of no consequence, and their respect has no value at all. They are still human beings and might get better, but if you ever have to deal with them after the harassment, it's them who should be working on earning your respect, not other way around.

Thursday, December 06, 2018

Friday, August 24, 2018

The war on opiates and constipation

Every time a war against anything starts in the US, the warriors are very annoyingly efficient. Last year I just wanted a little plastic bag for my purchases in a pharmacy in Harvard Square. I asked the cashier for a plastic bag, and he looked at me with huge round eyes and open mouth, as if I had asked him for newborn baby brains sprinkled with cocaine. Then he looked around, as if trying to make sure that nobody heard us, and whispered: "Don't you know? Plastic bags are forbidden!" I told him that I live in Helsinki, Finland, and the news of the city of Cambridge forbidding the plastic bags hadn't quite made the front page there. This seemed to surprise him.

But yes, they are forbidden now. Mind you, not taxed, or sold for money (unless you want to buy a pack of 100 or so; unless they already got to those as well), or something like that. Forbidden. The paper bag was utterly unusable for my purposes so I made do sticking the stuff in various pockets of my jeans and purse, and buggered off, wondering what they are gonna ban next.

I guess we found it now: Loperamide, aka Imodium. As a part of general struggle against the opiate addiction. Because some people apparently use it as a drug, in the amounts of 100 times the recommended dose. (As an aside: I have taken the drug in question once in my life, half a pill, and didn't shit for a week after that. Do the people who take 100 pills at a time shit at all, ever again?)

Anyway, now the FDA is asking the manufacturers to discontinue selling the big packages, and the people with chronic diarrhea are screwed. Paska juttu.

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Warning: men at work

Every once in a while when I am at a job or client interview I get asked the question "we have a mostly male team, is it OK with you?". I am wondering what kind of answer do they expect:

"Oh no! Men are icky and have cooties!"
"Oh no, I would be so horny that I wouldn't be able to work at all."
"Well, all my previous teams mostly consisted of women, but I guess it's 21st century now and I am sure men can be just as good."
"Oh no, men! Is nothing sacred anymore?"
"They are beastly creatures, but I'll try to grin and bear it."